I am happy, I say!

I carry a smile on my face all day long

but deep within, heart bleeds saddest songs,

day by day a voidness speeding in my soul

although crowded, but emotionally detached 

At times I feel the power to believe my instincts

the other time, I am left in dark despair,

so much to say but I dread to speak

air in abundance but unable to breathe,

with lame excuses I assure my heart

soon this will be over as end is near,

now tired of efforts and killing emotions

my heart longs a soft wrap from you

prisoned in my own thoughts

waiting to get unlocked from inhibitions,

Here, I wake up every single day

with yet another fake smile on my face...

pain resides in my heart but,

I'm fine ... All is well ...I'm happy .....

I say!