Eroticism

I gazed at my reflection for the hundredth time in the mirror,I don't know if am pleased with how I looked, well, considering it's been a while I really dressed up so I don't even know how I was supposed to look,but my daughter kept trying to convince me on how nice I looked, she's my biggest cheerleader,or may be I do look good, well,if you were looking from another standpoint,I had lost nearly sixteen pounds,I was never really obese to begin with,I was what you refer to as "out of shape".I tilted my head to the right to examine my makeup and put on my mascara.i wore the last piece of my jewelry and grabbed my purse just in time to see the call come in,it's Chris and I clicked on the receiver" hey sweetie am outside,you ready or what"." Errrr am m com..ready" I stammered,now am going to shoot myself,like it's the first time he is calling me sweetie,it means nothing to him,he probably calls every girl sweetie,I checked on my twins for the last time as I walked through the hallway,they were sound asleep,thank heavens.i cast a brief look into the kitchen and my nanny was already preparing supper,it smelled good,she was making pasta with meatballs,I told her I was probably going to be late, my daughter kept cheering for me as I walked past the front doors,it felt like a kid leaving for college,I know she is glad that I have decided to give living a chance,I strolled to the side walk where Chris's car was parked,I opened the passengers door and got into the car and when I looked up at him I was stunned" wow"well,thank you, and you look gorgeous" shit!! "Uhhmm thank you" I murmured he had on a black cotton long sleeved cotton shirt it was soft cotton and I could see the outline of his muscular chest,indecent!!and a stone washed ripped jeans." We are already late" he said as he zoomed off immediately.The venue was already packed when we arrived and he quickly found a spot to park his car and turned off the engines and I opened the passenger's door and alighted before he could come around to do help me with it.He was on the phone with someone when he walked up to me,he quickly ended the call,he examined me for a minute then he smiled to himself,hmmm I never know what goes on in his mind,then he put out his hand to clasp mine and we walked in hand in hand into the venue.I think I recognized a few faces before we got in but the shock of my life awaited me when we walked in, everyone I got acquainted with through mikey was there,even his brothers and james and he was shocked seeing us together,I guess chris never informed him.i quickly found a seat and plunged down,then buried my face in shame.chris went around to say hi to people and make small talks.when I finally looked up the scowl I got from everyone was enough to send a dead body running from the grave.i got out my smart phone from my purse and decided to keep myself busy,I felt betrayed,like he did this on purpose.i know what these people are thinking, they are judging me.chris came around to sit beside me and one look on my face and he immediately understood,he said we could go back if I wanted,I didn't reply,then he said it's probably for best,I stared at him in disbelief,he just can't be true.seconds felt like minutes and minutes felt like hours and time dragged on while I endured it all,it felt like I was being punished,then someone came to whisper something to him and he smiled and turned to me,he said he was being fined £700 for bringing me along as a date, apparently the thought it was disrespectful to my late husband.traditon.he got up and held my hand and led me through the glaring crowd,still hand in hand to our car,days I wished I owned one of those extra large fashion goggles.we got into the car and he drove me home in an awkward pause.I tried to get off the car as soon it halted in front of my house but Chris stopped me halfway.he turned around to face me fully then he caressed my cheeks and guarded me to face him, I was forced to meet his gaze,then he leaned in and kissed me so amorously, taking my breath away,and my whole body responded instantly, betraying me,as if it's been waiting for so long to be kissed that way,I found myself heedlessly kissing back,his lips felt so soft on mine,his hands cupping my face,he didn't let it wander,I yawned for them to wander, to pull me me further in,I wanted so much to feel his touch,his tongue tasted so good,as it wandered around my mouth exciting all my senses,then he gently pulled away and smiled at me while still caressing my cheeks"I will see you on Monday" fuck! The guts on this guy,who does he think he is,I opened the car door,more aroused and confused and went down slamming it shut without even saying goodbye and took a walk of shame into the house.i collapsed on the bed immediately I got into the room,the kids were already asleep by now I thought,I was too tired to kiss them goodnight.i tried to get a load of today's events as I change into my night wears,I cleaned off my make ups with a cosmetics wipes as I was too tired for a shower.how do I face chris tomorrow,as if things between us weren't already awkward as it was,james was bound to find out,that is,if he hasn't blabbed everything to him already over the phone.everything is a mess,he is definitely the one I couldn't ermmm shouldn't have,I dozed off as soon as my head hit the pillows.